Things that FREAK me out!!

I have a long list of things that freak me out!! Things such as mice, spiders, snakes, cockroaches and moths. Why am I scared of moths, you may wonder, it is my brother Ben's fault!! Back in the 80's and 90's when hair was much higher, and therefore required a lot more hairspray. We lived in a house with a carport instead of a garage, my brother Ben would torture me!! This involved catching moths that would always gather around our fluro carport light. After he caught the moths he would come over to me with them  and chuck them into my BIG hair!!! Because my hair was so full of hairspray, and it was curly the moths would get stuck. You know the kind of moths I'm talking about? The big bad ugly ones. I would be bolting around the carport in absolute hysterics, screaming and going berserk!! Sometimes I still have dreams about it!! I know my reaction only egged him on, but I could not help it. I could hear them flapping around my ears, and feel their dusty wings against my face, it was absolute hell!

Now that I am all grown up, and we have a garage, I can easily avoid moths! There are still other things that freak me out though, and they are not the laughing kind. Last week I headed to the gym with the twins. The gym I go to is in a big shopping centre. As we were heading back to the car, Oli ran on in front while Sienna lagged behind. Sienna did not want to walk that day, she kept falling over and crying and asking to be carried, I had my gym bag and full hands so could not pick her up. When we turned the corner to the car park, Oli was no where to be seen!! I ran ahead worried he had run onto the road and been hit! I looked everywhere and could not see him. I started screaming his name, I was frantic! Sienna had caught up by now and sensing the panic in my voice started crying and saying "Oli where are you?" over and over. We were both losing it!! I picked Sienna up, and started running all over the place, screaming, people were staring at me, but I didn't care, I was feeling desperate. I ran back to the gym he wasn't there, I ran out to the playground, and saw him, totally oblivious to what I had gone through, he was running around with some random kids! I wanted to collapse and bawl my head off, I marched over to him, grabbed him by the arm and took him to the car. By the time I got to the car I was shaking, I strapped the twins in their chairs and just sat in the car for about 15minutes crying like a baby! When I could finally speak I tried to explain how important it was that Oli never ever leave my side, that there are bad people and that I could not live if anything ever happend to him.

Today when we went to the gym, as soon as we parked the car Sienna says to Oli "You are never running away again are you Oli, you are going to always hold hands forever?!" Oli reluctantly agreed! Now that I am a grown up there are so many things that scare me more than moths!! That's not to say I would like one thrown in my hair anytime soon!!!

this is how I used to keep track of my twins!! I might have to pull these out again!!